Beach Bodies!

Ahhh the beach is definitely a better place to be on a Thursday than the confines of a cubicle. As I lay on the beach drinking a Smirnoff Mojito (very sweet but that’s ok since it was 10:30am in the morning) and looked out over the surf at all different people of all sizes and cultures. My eyes caught the back of a female with what I think is the perfect body. She had a lime green triangle bikini on and as she turned slightly to the side her tan and perfect breasts made me stare in awe and jealousy. I am not gay but sometimes I look at some women’s bodies and think “damn” why can’t I have been blessed with genes like that or more time so I can go to the gym everyday for three hours. The other ladies I was with agreed with me about the perfection of this body (S. interjected that we were all fucking retarded because she had no ass or curves) until she turned her head and we all realized she was like 13-15 years old. Uhhhhhh apparently I was a body of a pre-pubescent….scary.

Can it get any worse!

So I have to ask myself "What the hell else can go wrong this month?" Is this seriously all occruing at the same time. I swear the old cliche is true BAD THINGS HAPPEN IN THREE. So S. and I broke up, I just couldn't take it anymore....granted I am still madly in love with him! But even though I technically broke it off with him (in a hysterical mess) I truley feel like he dumped me. After 4 years and so much bullshit what was I to do when he said " I don't think I ever want to get married" Well dumbass that means you don't want to marry me. He looked shocked when I ended it and the last three weeks have been back and forth, him showing up at my place upset, me calling him...DRAMA, DRAMA and more drama. I do not understand why i just can't let S. go? Is love this passionate and addictive healthy? Does not help that the sex is the most amazing in my life. Well I will continue in a bit the other crazy things occuring...but to all the quarter life babies out there I have a question....Is a live with too much passion a good thing for a real long term relationship?