The weekend Part 1...

Well this weekend was definitely crazy, fun and a little much. Lets see first off I went to the happy hour which turned out to be a lot of fun, and I got the cute R&D guy to go, but I found out real soon that he is just as damaged as I am right now. He got dumped by his long term girlfriend of 5 years about a month ago. Hmmm ok this could be good right, two messed up young people coming together….WAIT no that is not good because we work together. So we talked flirted and he asked for my number (I gave it after numerous blue moons, hehe) before he left. Well as I am bounding from one coworker to another (So many people showed up due to the fact that it was 4 peoples birthdays) bantering I start talking to Safety Guy….ended up spilling my guts about S. when Hot gym boy texts me about ignoring his calls, blah blah. I was up front and told him “WE have nothing in common at all, so why are we pretending?” He said he wanted to be friends..Ahhh OK friends should be able to have conversations but that is fine. Ease your ego big man and call us friends. It’s too bad I am not really physically attracted to Safety guy because his personality ROCKS. He is too funny and I love a good sick sense of humor. I definitely had an ego boost all night considering I paid for barely any drinks, convinced a random guy to share his pitcher with me, and even got a guy I yelled buying me drinks.
Apparently men love bitches and this is fine right now because I am bitter and have a wall up. I don’t care if I ever see any of these guys I have been dating or talking to. So continuing with the night….
After drinking till midnight and seeing two coworkers making out whom were so mismatched and in my craziest dreams could not have see that coming, I decided enough was enough and walked Safety guy to his car and gave him a hug goodbye. As I am driving home I am mad, mad at S. and men in general. So I decided to act like a man and call Hot gym boy. I asked him what he was doing and told him to come to his house. He dropped his friends immediately and came home. I basically told him to shut up so we can have sex. He kept trying to talk and although he has a great body and not a bad package I was sorely disappointed with his stamina. I was in and out in 25 mins! I hate having to pretend getting off but what was I going to do, try and talk to this guy. So I left and he made it clear that he wanted me to call him and he doesn’t mind the booty call arrangement. This is good for me but I don’t know if I feel like training him. It was actually a little liberating to act like a man. Although I feel bad to a certain extent, basically I am releasing my anger out on random men when we all know it is coming from S. The worst part is I know this but I also know I am not going to stop. I went home and saw that S. was online and I called. I know I know, shoot me now. BUT before you condemn me I was in a good mood and we had a great talk, well I was good on the phone S. was depressed (probably a fucking act) and we talked openly about everything. I told him I am getting better and better and the not seeing him/sleeping with him was really good for me. It was a long conversation over an hour, but it was nice to talk and hear his voice. I can’t wait for the day when we can be best friends, but sometimes I know that will A. Never happen or B. Take like 10 years and us to both fall in love with someone else. Finally by 3:30am I passed out after a long night…
I woke up early and went to the gym (my saving grace through this whole thing) and then met up with Rec. Guy for an afternoon date. We went to a scrimmage game to the state school. I am not a fan of football but we did more chatting than anything. It was getting cold so we went to a restaurant and I actually ate some greasy bad food which felt like a brick afterwards. Now the thing about Rec. Guy is that he is a sweet normal guy who is not bad but he is kind of boring. We don’t really have the same sense of humor and although he is adorable and a good-looking guy he doesn’t get me excited. So I am going to have to break the news to him that I don’t think it is going anywhere. I made sure to pick up our last lunch so I didn’t feel guilty.
I will continue to the rest of the weekend later today but off to a meeting…

Hmm Hot Marine boy...

OK...so I have just had this horrible long drawn out breakup with S. but surprisingly I am holding up quite well. No crying the last 3 days, still eating and going to the gym. Even the lame email he sent me about learning from me, he will miss me....all word vomit and lies, did not get me upset just more angry. I even got together the last few things I have to give back (via friends not in person) including his key to his apartment, hoodie and his childhood stuffed animal. (It was made mention that I should cut off and ear and send it back, hehehe!)
So last night I am hanging with MAC girl one of my good friends who was dumped recently and guy is calling and sleeping with her but not saying he wants to get back together thing. Oh hun we have all been there, especially with our first love/crush. She brought over these delicious eggplant wraps and pasta salad and we watched a movie.
Remember I said Myspace is the devil, well I still agree but it seems a perfect place for rebound boys and a little ego boost. See I have been on myspace for years (before it was so big) but I was alos always in a relationship so I never hunted on Myspace or became friends with random men.
Well now I am in a whole new world of Single MYSPACE. I got alot of emails and friend requests. So this makes me feel good but most are not anyone I would talk to (hmm creepy 50 year old pedophile) but there were a couple and one guy in particular. We will call him HOT MARINE man. Holy shit this guy is goodlooking. He seems like the perfect rebound. He is 31, was in the marines, is a personal trainer and works at the clothing store Hollister as a manager, and is applying to law school as we speak. On a physical level, he has a chiseled jaw and chest with big gorgeous blue eyes. Honeslty I usually fall for cute but rebound and lust (which is all I can deal with right now in my bitter stage) makes this guy a perfect canidate.
He emailed me a simple hi and I emailed back...well low and behold soon after I email him I get a respond and we ended up IMing for 20-30 minutes. Other great points...COMPLETE opposite of S. in the fact that he doesn't drink! Get this, he stopped drinking to concentrate on school. Holy shit a man who doesn't have a drinking problem and has self control. I admitted that I could give up most booze but not my red wine. I will have to examine this straight edge lifestyle to see what it is like. Just from the IM and picture exchange (I gave some good pics and not so good pics so he had a true depiction of me) he surprisingly gave me his number (Ok so he is either shy like he said he was or he is a complete slut).
Oh and on a side note…MAC girl was with me and acting like a little school girl like me as well. That is when we came up with HOT MAN (name) for him. Its funny how a little ego boost can brighten your day even for a few minutes. Luckily I am in that “I don’t give a shit if you ever call me or see me again because all men should die” mentality but a hot man can definitely bring a smile to your face. Let’s think about this….He is gorgeous, muscular, can get me discounts from a great clothing store, smart, and going to Law school. Hmmmm what else do I need in a lust relationship? Hopefully if we actually get together and start to hang out he won’t be awful in person or in bed. I will keep you updated but should get to some real work….